Thought of the Day

If you took Jesus out of my life I would be a big mess of broken nothing-ness. Thanks to His grace, love, and forgiveness, I can live, and live a life of meaning.

Thought of the Day

If you took Jesus out of my life I would be a big mess of broken nothing-ness. Thanks to His grace, love, and forgiveness, I can live, and live a life of meaning.

Pray For You

What Kind of Mom am I??? (quiz on facebook) this is what I got

Hip Mom:




You are doing pretty good! You know that being a strong mom is important and that you aren't perfect! You can laugh and cry with your kids! You demand respect and set a certain standard for your kids to follow! You are the MOM of the Year!

This week Satan has been nagging me, and just feeding me lies. Up until today, I have been able to not let it bother me so much. Cause he is a jerk, and I know that, but now tonight I feel alone, and like I don't matter to anyone. Which is a big fat lie, but why in the world is it bothering me?!?!? I hate this, I hate letting him get to me, I hate that I am so sensitive to things said about me or to me. He knows that I am easy to get to, and that bothers me more!!! AHHHHHH

I like how you said it

I like how you said we can't not have each other in our lives. Cause it's true!!! I need you. I am a mess without you, and it hurts to much when your not there. Yes there are more people that mean a lot to us in our lives, and I think we both get jealous of each other for that fact. But I hope that no matter how close anyone is, you have one of the specialist places in my life.
I love you.

Cop Out

Why do people use God as a cop out of things?!?!?!? I understand that God has a will and God has a reason for everything, but I don't believe that every time someone says "I think God..." or "I feel God..." is always really God speaking. I defiantly feel that in the situation that has been handed to me this week, God has been used as the cop out.

But what do I know what God's will is, what do I know what is going to happen. All I know is that I do not feel God telling me the same thing.

After having a CRAPPY crappy morning/early afternoon (which I have not felt that miserable in a LONNGG time.) I got a good cry out while cleaning the parking lot, which helped, and then I went and hung out with Melissa, which REAllY helped me. So thanks again Melissa :)

You never know when you will wake up one morning, and a very close friend no longer wants to be friends. It sucks to receive what I did this morning. Not a good way start off my day. Its a good thing the sun is shining, it is beautiful outside, and that I have other friends that are there for me.
even if loosing this friend I loos a couple more along with it. but o well... that is life. Right?

Well Here We Are...

Well it is now April, nearing the end of the school year, and I have no idea what is going on for next year. I have a couple things I need to get in before hearing back from UW Stout. I have one more thing to do one my UW Whitewater application, and sending a few things for that. And well as far as my MN Mankato application, yeah I don't remember my password for that, and I have not been able to access it in a while. I feel so overwhelmed with this whole school thing again. I do not want to be at UW Waukesha next year. Not that its a bad school, I just don't feel content there. I know I need to get out, and do something more. But I have fallen in the whole "last minute" thing again. The biggest thing is, I need the money to send in the last few things. I need to get transcripts(which cost money to get,) and send application fees. blah. Money is such a sucky thing to have to deal with, or try to deal with when you have none.

I really need some prayer and guidance to what I need to do, and what my direction is.

I was at work, kinda bummed cause of one thing that always bothers me at work. Bobsie pretty much dislikes me, I'm pretty sure she thinks I am irresponsible and incompetent... ANYWHO...
So I was walking through the hallway to go put a mop head in the laundry room, as John Glass comes up to me. Telling me that in the staff meeting they had today, Dan K was (in John's words) "singing praises" about how great of a director I am on the Tech team. John also said that Christine had some thing to say, and she said about how the kids at church love me, and that I work really well with them.
By John telling me what was said about me in the meeting made me super happy, and it felt good to know that I am actually being appreciated at FRCC. Because lately I have felt like no one does, and that it really isn't the church for me. There are still thing I have a hard time about with FRCC, but today made me feel like I actually can do something right, and that someone actually notices.

I love working with the kids, it is one of my greatest joys in life. I love serving on the tech team, I am a tech geek... I will admit it. Both areas can get rough sometimes, but I love having them be part of who I am and help define who I am.

I have always been hard on myself, and probably always will be. I criticize who I am, and what I do. I have a hard time taking criticism from other, because I get more down on myself. I also have a hard time taking a complement, like when someone says I'm awesome. I love hearing things like that, but yeah. But hearing what was said today, made me feel spectacular. I was able to accept it really well. I had the biggest smile on my face, and just was super "giddy." Which I think is God helping me to change.




(ok this was totally just flowing out of my brain, so if makes no sense, sorry.)

Bahaha funniest email I have ever recieved

LOSING A FRIEND:

THIS IS A VERY TOUCHING STORY ABOUT LIFE & DEATH,

AND THE FRIENDS THAT WE HAVE.

IT'S CERTAIN TO STIR UP YOUR HEART, TOUCH YOUR SOUL..

THIS EMAIL IS ONE I COULD NOT AFFORD NOT TO SHARE WITH MY FRIENDS.

I'M STILL CHOKED UP OVER IT!















LOSING A FRIEND: