I was at work, kinda bummed cause of one thing that always bothers me at work. Bobsie pretty much dislikes me, I'm pretty sure she thinks I am irresponsible and incompetent... ANYWHO...
So I was walking through the hallway to go put a mop head in the laundry room, as John Glass comes up to me. Telling me that in the staff meeting they had today, Dan K was (in John's words) "singing praises" about how great of a director I am on the Tech team. John also said that Christine had some thing to say, and she said about how the kids at church love me, and that I work really well with them.
By John telling me what was said about me in the meeting made me super happy, and it felt good to know that I am actually being appreciated at FRCC. Because lately I have felt like no one does, and that it really isn't the church for me. There are still thing I have a hard time about with FRCC, but today made me feel like I actually can do something right, and that someone actually notices.

I love working with the kids, it is one of my greatest joys in life. I love serving on the tech team, I am a tech geek... I will admit it. Both areas can get rough sometimes, but I love having them be part of who I am and help define who I am.

I have always been hard on myself, and probably always will be. I criticize who I am, and what I do. I have a hard time taking criticism from other, because I get more down on myself. I also have a hard time taking a complement, like when someone says I'm awesome. I love hearing things like that, but yeah. But hearing what was said today, made me feel spectacular. I was able to accept it really well. I had the biggest smile on my face, and just was super "giddy." Which I think is God helping me to change.




(ok this was totally just flowing out of my brain, so if makes no sense, sorry.)

Bahaha funniest email I have ever recieved

LOSING A FRIEND:

THIS IS A VERY TOUCHING STORY ABOUT LIFE & DEATH,

AND THE FRIENDS THAT WE HAVE.

IT'S CERTAIN TO STIR UP YOUR HEART, TOUCH YOUR SOUL..

THIS EMAIL IS ONE I COULD NOT AFFORD NOT TO SHARE WITH MY FRIENDS.

I'M STILL CHOKED UP OVER IT!















LOSING A FRIEND:

This Was Just Funny...

To maintain a healthy level of insanity

1.) Sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars, to see if they slow down.

2.) Page yourself over the intercom. Don't disguise your voice.

3.)Every time someone asks you to do something, ask them if they want fries with that.

4.) Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks. Once everyone has gotten over their caffeine addiction, switch back with espresso.

5.)In the memo field of all your checks write "for marijuana"

6.)With a serious face, order a diet water whenever you go out to eat.

7.)Specify that your drive through order is to go.

8.)When the money comes out of the ATM scream "I WON"

9.) When leaving the zoo start running toward the parking lot yelling "run for your lives, they're loose!!!"

10.)Tell your children over the dinner table that "due to the economy we are going to have to let one of you go."

From The Inside Out

I love...

I love Sarah Cohan, and Sam Helm to Death.... enough said :)

GREAT SONG!!!!!!

Everything Falls by Fee:

Inspiration

So I have been thinking lately about my life, and who I am to people. What do I represent? But more so, that I want to inspire someone. If it were just one person or many, it would mean so much to me. I don't think I ever have though. To be honest, I don't think I have really ever been truly inspired myself. I mean there are things I have done that probable never would have if someone encouraged me to, but in the sense of really being inspired, I don't think I have been. Which kinda bums me out.
But I really have wanted to be an inspiration to someone. How, I don't know. Whether it is an inspiration for Christ, or an inspiration to do something.
I want my life to be meant for something, I want to have been used for good, in some way. I want to live a life that I can look back some day and say, "it has been a good life, I am glad that I lived it that way." God is constantly changing, shaping me, teaching me, and growing me, to be a person of faith, a person of love, etc. I have really wanted my blog, and life to be centered around him. Sure I have posts that aren't but, I want the essence of it to be uplifting, and just to have people see my love for the Lord. And in that, I hope that it will inspire one person to seek Him out, or have someone want to learn and grow more in their walk. I'm not perfect, no one is. But if I can live a life for Christ, and I have the ability to write it out, show my faith, and love, I want to fill that ability. God is so good, He allows for me to set my heart on things, and want to live out everyday.



(I hope this post made some sense. LOL)

New Found Respect

So tonight my brother Dan and I got to hang out, grab some half off appetizers at Applebees. We have always been at different stages of life. But I have been learning so much more, and been doing some growing up. Well at first, it was kinda awkward to be sitting down one on one with him. But after a little bit we got talking and such. There were things he said, like when he came back from Australia, he choose to be back here, 25 living at home, and working for hourly wage at Starbucks. All because he wanted to be home, and here for Andy, Chris and Me. and other things that may not be that big of a deal, but I found a lew level of respect, and admiration for my big brother. He isn't just my older brother who has to pick on me, and suh, but he is my older brother who truly loves me, and cares about me, and wants the best life for me. I don't think I could have asked for a better big brother :)

I found this picture as I did a Google search for a new desktop picture. As i found it, I thought it was really cool, then I started really looking at it. I viewed it as a symbol of my life. For the tree I see it as growth in my life. For the kid standing looking out, I view it as me standing with so much potential in this world, and it is all right in front of me. I jsut have to take that step out, and work toward goals/dreams, work toward my future, live my life, etc. I am at an age where I have the world right at my finger tips, and I can grasp it, or I can let it pass on by.