So am I going mad/crazy???
Here I am. 19yrs old. "suppose" to be in school, and not. I have gone to a church for about 5ish years now, been super involved, and such, and now leaving it all.
I feel like people are thinking I'm going crazy, or something dramatic has happened. but no. I really feel that God has this all in His plan for me. I feel right/content with taking this year, and finding who I am. Figuring out where I want to be for school, and getting there. Figuring out where I need to be to be able to grow stronger, learn more, and worship the God of my life. I need this to refocus on Him.
There are plenty of reasons I am leaving the church. Although it may be "sad" for some. I find it refreshing. (this may sound selfish) but to know that people would be sad that I'm gone, means I have made a difference. Maybe God is leading me out to find a new church to make a difference in. If so AWESOME :) But I know deep down that my worship and love for the Lord needs to be re-focused on. I want to be a woman who can say I love and serve Him, because I love Him so much, and that my heart is in check.
I just hope that in all this, I will have people's support. I may not get everyone's but I hope that the people who love and care enough for me, would support me, guide me, and really help keep my hear in check for the Lord.
1 comment:
im here for you beth!
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