Boys...

So what do you do when there is a boy that you like so much. You like him so much you would do anything for him. Even if that something was letting him go, setting feelings aside and being there for him.
Well my feelings for a boy keep on keeping on. I like him so much. And whenever I see him I get the butterflies. I get a smile on my face. I have honestly been able to picture my life with him. He is so awesome. I am so excited that he is my date for my brothers wedding. Part of me wants to tell him how I feel. But part of me doesn't. Because since he is going off to the Marines in a few months i don't want to ruin what we have before he goes. But then I want him to know. I don't want him to be gone, and not know. What's a girl to do? Do I tell him at the wedding? Do I tell him before he leaves? Do I not tell him at all? Do I wait, and whenever he is back home(which I think he is gone for like 5 years) see how I feel and then figure it out? I have no idea. I have on and off feelings for him for years now. And now the feelings are crazy, I've never felt this way. It makes me smile. AHHH being a girl is so silly sometimes.
I am so incredible proud of him for what he is doing. It makes me happy to see him so excited about doing this. He has been so smart in his decision. He has thought of the long run, his future, what joining will do for him. How he can do so much more later on. I know this is good for him. I know God is blessing him, and will be with him.


And yes, I know I am being a total girl. But hey, it happens.