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Life has it's highs and lows. Embrace it. Live It. Push through. Find the Joy, the Laughter, the Smiles. The little things are the things that bring the most joy. New Life Rises From The Ashes. ~ <3 ~

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

A Touchy Subject Tested.

Once again I have had my buttons pushed with sex outside of marriage. Again it is dealing with someone close to me.
I just don't get it. Well I do, its called temptation and hard to say no to it.
Well The past two weeks I have been bottling up the feeling of whats going on, cause I don't want to be a jerk to the person. But when bottled up feelings become to much... theres a big explosion. And stupid me forgot about that little detail. SO as I talk to this person, (after 2 weeks of knowing) my feelings start to arise :/ BAD THING!!! I flipped out. Then I got into my stupid stage of once I flip I don't say anything else.
Its just the fact that I'm so sensitive to the subject and I have to deal with the fact that its going on in peoples live that I care about. Its a sad realization, but I don't understand what the point is of having sex outside of marriage is. Maybe God has just blessed me with the wisdom of knowing the special significants of waiting till marriage.
I just need to stay patient, and sensitive in whats going on in lives around me.

Just more rambles again :)

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Beanie Weenies!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahaha I love the Skit Guys.
Even though this is funny, and doesn't go with the rest of my blog, Just thought I would put this on here for fun.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Wisdom and Word Needed

I am blogging to ask for prayer and personally pray that I can have the wisdom and the words that I need to really talk to Jessie about Jesus, and what it means to be a Christian. I slightly had a talk about it tonight, but mostly what it was that I said something about how I really liked Jesus and how he is a good guy, and she should really find him. She said she can find him, but not be a Christian. With that said, I really felt God pull at my heart and I know that I am meant to bring her to Christ. I mean like I have posted before, just asking her to come to church was a step out of my comfort zone. So that was God working through me. And I really have a feeling that she will find the truth, and I just hope that I will be part of her story someday. But I know God is working through me, and I want to be used. I have never been a reason someone has come to Christ (not that I know of anyway.) I love Jessie and there is nothing more that I want for her, then to become a follower of Jesus Christ.
I want to get her a Bible, a cool fun Bible, that I could give to her and use to help me start that conversation. Plus she said she didn't have a bible and I was like you want one? She said sure, so I really think it would help and be a cool thing to get her. Another reason I feel like I am being pulled to do this is cause she likes coming to youth group with me. She says she has fun, and that makes me really happy. So I just ask that you pray for me to be that light to her.


Sunday, October 12, 2008

Life Storms

So I'm in the middle of one...
Its a weird one too.
I'm so frustrated, stressed, overwhelmed, and just down. But then I know that God has a complete understanding and control of why everything thats going on is happening. He knows whats beyond this, he knows everything, and I have complete understanding of that. But I just can't seem to know what to do, I need to hear God tell me what I need to do to get everything straight, under control. I feel helpless, like theres nothing no one can do. I feel like I can't do anything to help myself.

I know God will never let me go, never leave my side through this. I know FULL well he is in control. As my favorite verse Says: I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. (Psalm 139:14)

Please if you read this and any of my other posts, please just pray for me.