Post It

I have a habit of saying "way to go champ, gold star" well since I say that so much I wanted to actually buy gold star stickers. However I never got around to it, cause the new Wal-Mart makes me freak and I never remember what I went there to get. and the one time I did remember, I couldn't find them.

Well anyway. I got a little surprise on saturday morning, when some awesome friend left me a little present in my car. Well she left me gold (and other colors) star stickers, as well as yellow and orange star post it notes. I was pretty stoked to say the least. Brought a big smile to my face.

So now I have these post it notes, which well what do I do with them???
I decided that I was going to write Bible verses on them, then stick them to my mirror that I use when I get ready. I figured, I could get a little bit of God encouragement while getting ready.

I love it, I have had so much fun digging in The Word to find verses so far, and can't wait to continue (having a hard time with the fact that I am working on some other stuff, and not doing that, cause I love being in my Bible.)

I think it is one of the coolest things I have done, to help me be in The Word, and help me with my life.

See It

If you could portray the world as you wanted. Color it the way you saw it.
How would it look.
What would be specific, and special?
What part of it would make it you? How would you leave your mark?
How would you want others to see what you see?
How would the world look if we all took our piece, our view, and our mark on the world, put them together.
Just picture, if everyones something special was taken and put together...

Blank

Sometimes there are no words.
I go through phases of blogging. I write a bunch, or I am on and off, or not writing at all. Lately I have had a dry spell. I haven't had anything to write, nothing thought provoking, something that has to be written, or something that has enough to write about.
It actually bugs me that I have gone through this dry writing spell. Cause I really enjoy writing on here. I may not be a "writer", or anywhere near being good at writing, or really want to be a "writer," but I actually enjoy writing on here, making a mark, and getting some thoughts out. Words are not my thing. Writing properly or in a way that makes sense isn't either. But here I am, spewing my brains and thoughts out on a blog. Which from what I hear, people like my blog. Why not sure, but hey. It's real, and it's me. I hope that its is good enough.
So now that I got to post something, I want to post more, but I got nothing....

My Hope...

So I have this hope, I hope that to any kids that come into and along with me in my life, that I can make a difference. I hope that I can have a cool enough relationship with them, where they can come to me and trust me with anything. I hope that I can be someone they can consider to be like a sister. I really truly care for kids (well people in general.) There are a handful of kids right now in my life that I really hope they know how much I love them, and if they have something going on, unsure of who they can go to, not sure what to do, I hope they know they can come to me, and I will do my absolute best to help, but for sure to be a listening, caring someone they can come to openly. I don't need to know everything, but if I can be someone that can listen, be trusted, and looked up to; awesome, I have done my job. Which more and more, I am realizing that this is probably my biggest passion. I am a listener, I am a caring spirit, I have a servants heart.
This is one reason I really need to get my self back to being Christ centered. I need to have my focus set, in order to help the one's I love be focused better, or be a light to others.

One thing with this is I have always wanted to be a part of the Big Brother/Big Sister program. I think it would be amazing, and something that is something that I could maybe be good at??? lol

Beautiful by Mercy Me....

So this song hits me HARD:








Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything 
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart 
They'd see too much

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Praying that you have the heart to fight 
Cuz you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
But they are nothing in the shadow of the cross

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skies above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to die!

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
In His eyes

You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured
You are sacred
You are His

A Few Verses From This Past Week

1 Peter 3:3&4

"Don't be concerned about the outward beauty of fancy hair styles, expensive jewelery, or beautiful clothes. You should clothe yourself instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle, and quite spirit, which is so precious to God."

Romans 8:6

"So letting your sinful nature control your mind, leads to death. But letting the spirit control your mind leads to life and peace."

Romans 8:26 (first "half")

"And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness."

1 Timothy 1:7

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self discipline."

Psalm 91:2

"This I declare about the Lord: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; He is my God, and I trust Him."

Dreams

So you know everyone needs to have dreams. Well I have some, but I avoid trying to even consider reaching them. Well yesterday I was thinking of some past dreams that I have had. And I realized there are a few that I still really want to make happen, but not sure how to make it happen.
One is drama... no not like the teenage girl life is horrible drama, but like the acting type of drama... I always loved doing that, and I was in this thing at Elmbrook that we put on skits and performances for a bunch of things. It was one of the most fun things I have ever done. I never wanted to give it up, but I hit the point of I was to old to be in that thing, and we also started to attend FRCC. Well I have tried to pursue doing Kidftuf drama, and I have tried to talk to someone about it a few times, and they have not really given me the time or day for it. I get it, I'm not one of the cool people around, but still, I have wanted to do it since I have been around FRCC, and since I have known about Kidstuf. But yeah... I'm not sure how to pursue this dream. I don't even know how good at it I am or ever was. So is it worth trying to pursue?

Another one that has never gone away, I just got down on myself for, and a couple other reasons, but its photography. I love it, I love capturing a moment, I love using the little bit of creativity that I have. I know for the most part how to pursue this one. It's just a matter of getting there, and working on it.

And then there is the oh so typical dream of getting married and having kids. Cause really it is my biggest dream of all. That one is just a matter of waiting for God's timing.

It has been a long time since I have thought about my dreams. I have such a fear of failure, and letting others and myself down that I gave up on thinking about them, or even continuing to dream. It's not something that anyone should do. How does someone become so hurt/discouraged to not even dream? Oh wait I know (kinda)...
But yeah, I am really working on God centered, confirmed words/thoughts.

Hero - Superchick [w/lyrics]