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Life has it's highs and lows. Embrace it. Live It. Push through. Find the Joy, the Laughter, the Smiles. The little things are the things that bring the most joy. New Life Rises From The Ashes. ~ <3 ~

Monday, January 26, 2009


I PASSED first semester of physics!!!!!!
I wasn't suppose to, but I think due to the fact that I'm a senior, my mom emailed my teacher saying I didn't fail on the fact that I didn't try, and the fact that I kinda had a break down while talking to her, helped for her going and "regrading" my stuff, and allowing me to pass with a D.
Who gets excited about a D??? Well sadly, I do when it comes to physics :)
But hey it makes me feel better about me actually graduating. I also have Garrett to help me out this semester :)
Ahhh I'm so happy I passed :)

Pray that things go well this semester for me!!!

Monday, January 19, 2009

Senior Year

O boy its half over... I feel like its just a dream, I shouldn't be a senior already!!!! I shouldn't have just turned 18!!! What happened to me being that little girl who looked forward to playing dolls with Jenny??? Lol. Now I have so many roads ahead of me. I have to get school apps in, I have to graduate, I (feel) I have to know what the heck I want to do with my life. I need to to get all this stuff planned, straightened out. I feel so lost. Where to begin. Where to begin especially when I NEED to pass physics in order to graduate. What if I don't graduate this year. I will be a wreck. I can't fail, I can't stay back a year my senior year, I need to graduate. Both Dan and Andy Graduated when they were suppose to, I can't be the one who doesn't. I feel so confused, I need help. I can't do this on my own. One semester left of school. Can I REALLY do this??? I'm honestly scared, stressed, etc.

I need your will to be my vision. My plan, my goal. I need the wisdom I need to get this done. I need you to guide me in that wisdom. It only comes from you!!!

Sunday, January 4, 2009


Lately life just seems to be flying by. I don't even know what I want to do with my life. I don't feel like I'm good enough at anything worth pursuing. The things I love to do, just don't seem right anymore. I am at the point where my college apps need to get in if I want to go to school. Which I do. But I just don't want to go without any idea of what I want with my life. Ive never been exceptional at anything. Things I would want to do, are always shot down by at least one person. I'm the kind of girl who, when one person says something bad about something I say or do, I feel terrible about it, and end up thinking I was stupid for even considering or doing that one thing. I just feel like I have nothing. nothing to make goals of, nothing that I should be following as pathways to a respectful, successful life. A life that people would be proud of me for. A life that I'm happy with and proud of myself. A life that is worth something.
I just don't feel like I'm going anywhere with my life, I feel like I have screwed up my future/life already by not knowing what I will do, or where I'm going in my life.