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Life has it's highs and lows. Embrace it. Live It. Push through. Find the Joy, the Laughter, the Smiles. The little things are the things that bring the most joy. New Life Rises From The Ashes. ~ <3 ~

Friday, December 17, 2010

Friday, December 10, 2010


I know I just started sponsoring little man (Farouk,) and have yet to receive anything, about him or from him.
But I love him. I love him hard. God told me to do this, God is giving me this love for him (not that I wouldn't, cause you know kids are my thing and loving them is what I do.) But I love him hard, every part of me. I see his picture and I smile, my heart jumps for joy.

His smile and eyes capture me in a moment of intense love. He is "mine" (well he is God's but, God let me have him.) By my obedience to a God who calls me His. I get to love hard on Farouk. I get to be something to Farouk  I get to show Christ love to him, by loving him personally. I may never meet him, hold him, see him personally. But I get to love him. That is the most incredible feeling ever.

He is a big part of my life now. He is a representation of my life "change." He is one of the biggest blessings of my life. I want to bless him, but I know it's going to be the other way. He is going to bless me more then I could ever imagine.

I'm going to say it again, I love him and love him hard. God loves him, God loves me, God loves you.
He is real, He is powerful, He is loving and living, and gracious.

My Own Little World - Matthew West + Lyrics


having little or no concern for oneself, esp. with regard to fame, position, money, etc.; unselfish.

Dear Santa

So my year hasn't been anything to exciting. There were moments and events, but mostly just another year of work, HA
But also building relationships, discovering who I am, being a better version of myself. Someone who is so in love and loved by Christ that it shows. It shows by the way I treat/see myself. Shows by how I treat others. Shows by me just in general having a lighter spirit, and not so worried/wound up. Free to be me, free to love and be loved by myself, and by others.
I want to view the world differently. Its an open book. It has a place for me. I want and know I am meant for something great. I want to find that purpose. Find what it is I am created for. What I am meant to be, and whose lives are in for the ride, and whose lives will be impacted because of God's purpose and plan for me.
I want my friends and family, and in general everyone to be happy, at peace, trusting that Christ wont steer them wrong, To know that there is nothing we cannot handle with out HIM.
Life is short we need to live, and love. Thats how I want to live, by actually living and actually loving and being loved. I want others to want that for themselves.

So, I hope in the next year I can be better. Better, not because of me, but because of Christ in me.
I want this Christmas/year to be full of laughter, love, joy, and peace. Let it be a Christmas/year that is so Christ centered, and amazing that we can stand firm on Him, and live. To learn something new, to step out, be different and great.
I get to move away, start a new chapter, fulfill something I want. But all in knowing I have great friends and family who love and support me. Who are there for me for whatever.

This has been the best couple weeks of my life, and I want it to carry over, and continue throughout the years.

Its time to end this year and start the next. I want it to be right, I want to be ready for it. And I think I am.


Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Come As You Are

Yesterday, when puklling into church. I read the big light up sign thing, as it had the slide that says "come as you are." Here is the conversation with my mom that followed:

Me: "So I can come in my underwear?"
Mom: "well I guess, if thats how you were no one could really say anything."
Me: "sweet, I'm going to do it sometime"
Mom: "riggghht Beth"
Me: "hahahaha they couldn't say anything, if thats how I want to be, and thats how I come, they can't say anything."
Mom: "ok Beth, you do that."
Me: "yeah right, like I would ever actually come in my underwear"

Something along those lines anyway.... HAHAHAHAHA

Oh my gosh it was so funny.

Which oddly enough it ties into the conversation that happened on saturday, about getting dressed for church and how underwear is a must wear. But who made that rule, esp if you can "come as you are"

HAHAHA I love it.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

World Vision

Well I did it. I finally obeyed God and started sponsoring a child.

I have always pondered on the the thought, but was convicted about two months ago when I got my lip pierced, that I need to support a child.
It was one of those things where God said if I can go and spend $30 to put a hole in my lip, I can spend $35/month on a kid who could use it.

Well in the two months I have been meaning to do it, but kept putting it off. Well the other night I finally went on the site to choose a kid. I know I wanted to support a little boy in Nicaragua. So thats what I did. I
Today I went to the bank to make sure I had the money in my checking to be able to support him for this month. Which in just going to the bank part of me almost didn't. Part of me said no this can't be what I have to do, I now have college to save for, and such. But I knew I had to do it, hello, God said to do it, I can't not listen to Him. I have to trust and obey Him.

So I did it, I started sponsoring Farouk :)
He is 3 years old, his bday is Feb 14, 2007. He is in Managua, Nicaragua
And he is so stinkin' adorable.

I am super excited :)

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Chrissy-Poo aka Chris

My brother Chris is in a band (Hail the King (check um out on myspace)) They are a hardcore/metalcore band. Yeah generally not my type of music. But hey, he loves it, he is passionate about drumming and music, so I give him great big props :)

I went to one of his shows that they played last night. Which wow, can we say I felt like a misfit being there. But that didn't matter. I was there for my brother. I wanted to support him, show him I love, and care about him and his passions/dreams.

I left that concert so stinkin' proud of him. I may not generally like that type of music, but I respect it. And I may be bias on this, but I don't really think that is it. But they are good, like legit, good. I was shocked, amazed, really actually enjoyed it. He kicked A at drumming, the band did awesome. It was all around awesome. Again so stinkin' proud of him.

I just hope that he knows it, know how much I love him. How much I care about him. How much I respect him. How much I want him to keep on with his hope/dreams/passions/goals. Whatever they are. I want him to know that I will be there for him in whatever he has a hope/dream/passion/goal for. I want him to live a life that is meaningful. A life he can say he has actually lived.

He is a great kid. Yeah he can be a stupid high school boy sometimes. But that doesn't define him. He is awesome, and amazing. I am super excited about the relationship him and I have. We spent so many years of our lives hating and I mean hating each other. But now, we are pretty much best friends. We trust each other, we love each other, we respect each other, we don't judge each other. It's probably one of the greatest things I will ever have.

All in all I love Chris. He is pretty much one of the coolest, lovable, talented people I know.

Saturday, December 4, 2010


So while watching the movie Changeling I had a lot of moments where I was weirded out, moments of thinking OH MY GOSH, moments of sadness, moments of some type of joy, etc. But I also had moments where I really put my "Jesus Goggles" on. There was a part in it where this guy (don't want to ruin it for anyone) that was talking about going to Heaven and or Hell, being forgiven, and getting to that place. Well I agreed but disagreed. I had a huge part of me going in my brain saying "yes, but there is sooooo much more to it then that, so much that you don't understand. AHH"

It's a good but weird movie. If you have seen it, would like to hear what you think. If you haven't seen it, its something I loosely recommend. It's intense.


I have never been a reader. Never. I mean I read when I had to (generally) but usually I hated it.

Well the last week or so now, I have turned into a reading addict. Oh my gosh, its crazy, I can't get enough.
And it is mostly my Bible I can't get enough of.

I love it. I love love love spending time in The Word. Finding new things, challenging myself, letting God to teach me. I have read a big chunk of the New Testament in one week, because I just have a hard time stopping, and when I have to stop because I have to go somewhere or do something, it's slightly disappointing.

It's not just the Bible I am enjoying reading, I am actually enjoying book books.... weird. LOL
So book suggestions, I'm open to them :) "hit" me with them. Let do this. HAHAHA

It's Starting

Well IT is starting.

I got accepted to the school I want to go to. I'm really getting to live out something that I wanted. I seriously wanted this soooooo bad. When I got that letter I flipped, I am so excited, like legit. No matter what, I'm excited.

It hit me tonight, that I will be moving, moving away from home, family, friends, this life I have here.

But I get to go and be who I want to be, be the person God has in store for me. I won't know anyone (which is and terrifying and exciting all in one.) I get to live ing a whole new way.

I am at a place in my life right now where my faith walk is so intense, so strong and real. I am seeing things I have never seen before. I feel different things that I have never felt. Things are so awesome. Yeah there are still struggles, but thats life. I have Christ. He is amazing. He has filled me in every way. I like who I am, I see myself differently. I see the impact I have on life, I see the beauty that is in me. I see the potential and purpose for my life. I see how I am loved/lovable. I see more then I ever have. God has opened my eyes, my heart, and my life.
It's indescribable.  I love it.

The school thing is total surrender to Christ. I trusted Him and His will for it, and I wanted my wanting to meet His will. And so far, it is.

I am so flippin' excited for the things that are have happened lately, are happening, and will happen.

I am a new creation in Christ. His love, grace, mercy, generosity, trust, etc is AMAZING. and I get to live it, live in Him, be like Him.

Yo Gabba Gabba

Alright this post is just dirty and wrong. But it has to be written.

Anyone with kids, anyone who knows Yo Gabba Gabba, etc.

The big red thing (Muno) Ok he doesn't look right. He looks, and please God and everyone else forgive me for this... but he looks like a big sex toy, or a penis. Which ever you want to say. Oh my gosh. Its crazy, and stupid, and wrong. But SERIOUSLY????? Yeah... oh Lord help us all...

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Guess Who is Going to College


I'm got accepted to Mankato State University.
I am so excited. I am stoked that I actually got in. AHHH YAY