Lately life just seems to be flying by. I don't even know what I want to do with my life. I don't feel like I'm good enough at anything worth pursuing. The things I love to do, just don't seem right anymore. I am at the point where my college apps need to get in if I want to go to school. Which I do. But I just don't want to go without any idea of what I want with my life. Ive never been exceptional at anything. Things I would want to do, are always shot down by at least one person. I'm the kind of girl who, when one person says something bad about something I say or do, I feel terrible about it, and end up thinking I was stupid for even considering or doing that one thing. I just feel like I have nothing. nothing to make goals of, nothing that I should be following as pathways to a respectful, successful life. A life that people would be proud of me for. A life that I'm happy with and proud of myself. A life that is worth something.
I just don't feel like I'm going anywhere with my life, I feel like I have screwed up my future/life already by not knowing what I will do, or where I'm going in my life.
About Me
- Bethann
- Life has it's highs and lows. Embrace it. Live It. Push through. Find the Joy, the Laughter, the Smiles. The little things are the things that bring the most joy. New Life Rises From The Ashes. ~ <3 ~
1 comment:
beth, you are an amazing person! You are not suppose to have your life all figured out at the age of 18! It is not meant to be that way, but america puts it that way. you are smart for not wanting to go to school undecided! it is a waste of money we think. You will always have peole in your life telling you something you did was stupid. Get use to it, shrug it off and dont listen. Ive learned that the hard way, you cant make EVERYONE happy. Honestly the only twoish people you need to worry about making happy are Jesus(he counts as three) and Yourself. If you make Jesus happy, you wont have to worry about you...he will take care of you. Something i think you could be good at is child care. You could take early childhood classes and work in a daycare loving on kids like you do and also in business and one day open a child care center yourself. God has blessed you with patience and understanding of kids. Dont ever let that grow out of you, it will make you a great mom some day :)
you also like photography and i think with a few good classes you could do amazing.
You are smart! Keep praying and relax. We love you and will support whatever decision you make about school and career choice(within reason...no naughty choices :))
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