I was at work, kinda bummed cause of one thing that always bothers me at work. Bobsie pretty much dislikes me, I'm pretty sure she thinks I am irresponsible and incompetent... ANYWHO...
So I was walking through the hallway to go put a mop head in the laundry room, as John Glass comes up to me. Telling me that in the staff meeting they had today, Dan K was (in John's words) "singing praises" about how great of a director I am on the Tech team. John also said that Christine had some thing to say, and she said about how the kids at church love me, and that I work really well with them.
By John telling me what was said about me in the meeting made me super happy, and it felt good to know that I am actually being appreciated at FRCC. Because lately I have felt like no one does, and that it really isn't the church for me. There are still thing I have a hard time about with FRCC, but today made me feel like I actually can do something right, and that someone actually notices.

I love working with the kids, it is one of my greatest joys in life. I love serving on the tech team, I am a tech geek... I will admit it. Both areas can get rough sometimes, but I love having them be part of who I am and help define who I am.

I have always been hard on myself, and probably always will be. I criticize who I am, and what I do. I have a hard time taking criticism from other, because I get more down on myself. I also have a hard time taking a complement, like when someone says I'm awesome. I love hearing things like that, but yeah. But hearing what was said today, made me feel spectacular. I was able to accept it really well. I had the biggest smile on my face, and just was super "giddy." Which I think is God helping me to change.




(ok this was totally just flowing out of my brain, so if makes no sense, sorry.)