Sad Thing to Realize

So Ive come to the knowledge of the fact the you cant be a teen girl who babysits and take the kid(s) out in public.
Why you ask...
Well the fact is that sadly our generation (well a lot of it) just flat out don't know how to say no.
SOOO being a teen girl with a small child (either way, if its your kid or you just watching the kid) you get dirty looks from people. And girls like myself watch kids, take kids to the park and stuff.
I have been to the park been out to a store with Dash and Sammie. I have had so many nasty looks at me, because I'm a teenage girl with a kid... THEY AREN'T EVEN MINE!!!!!
WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THE THOUGHT OF O MAYBE THEY ARE JUST A BABYSITTER?????? UGH!!!!
I mean I know the fact that yes girls my age screw up, get prego, and stuff. But you know what... some people need to lay off judgment when they see a girl with a kid. Who are they to even judge??? I know I should just shake it off and realize that I know the truth, and it not peoples job to judge me, but its just hard sometimes.
I love kids, I LOVE DASH AND SAMMIE. I'm not going to stop loving them or being around them and stuff because people are dumb sometimes, but sometimes I just get irritated at the looks I get.
Its hard being a girl who has never had sex, let alone kissed a guy. To get those looks and judgment. All because other girls my "age" is screwing up.



I Don't know, something to think about I guess.
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Luke

I got really really into my Bible reading last night. Started reading Luke, dont know why I havent read it before, so thats where I ended up reading from. I got super into it that I was up till like 130 or so (granted I started at 1130 or so.)
But just reading it, it amazed me. One thing that we have all heard before, but really hit me in my reading was, no matter how many times people saw Christ cure the sick, blind, demon possessed, even the raised the DEAD!!!! People kept asking who is this man that says he can do amazing things. We just kept doubting. And it also came to me that we are like that. God can bless us with so much, and do so much for us, but one bad thing happens in our life that we question God why. We doubt, we are men and women of little faith in those rough times. So why, why do we question God al the time, how many times does he have to prove to us that he is in power, he has everyhting under control, we dont need to worry and stress. God shouldnt have to prove himself to us, we should just know and believe, and trust. He is an Almighty God, who LOVES us so much that he sent his son to die for us... how is that even fair??? Jesus isn't about fair, hes about loving us and protecting us. We are his children.
So it it my goal, for whenever I want to say "Why" I want to say "Thanks for being in control." Will you do the same??? Its my prayer for everyone and myself to come to the complete understanding that we dont need to ask why, we just need to trust.

Here are some verses that cought my attention:

Luke 1 : 37
Luke 1 : 46-51
Luke 1 : 68-79
Luke 3 : 9
Luke 4 : 8
Luke 4 : 12
Luke 5 : 31-32
Luke 6 : 9
Luke 6 : 27-38
Luke 6 : 45
Luke 7 : 11-15
Luke 9 : 23 & 25
Luke 9 : 44-45
Luke 9 : 50
Luke 10 : 16-20
Luke 11 : 23

Hearing God

This past week God has really been getting my attention. Between talks at church/youth group, music, even on the show wife swap (lol.) Ive not really taken the time to put in my Jesus time.
With getting ready to go to school, and all that sress. My dad looking for a job. As I want to be a photographer, sometimes I wonder if I really am cut out to be one.
Ive just really been relizing that I need to keep calm, God is in control and though we seem to feel like we are at the end of the road, but God knows what will happen, and he will bring good out of all the bad. He doesnt give us stress, we bring it upon ourselves by not trusting God.
He has also been showing me how AMAZING he is. He shows us in so many incredible ways. He brings comfert to those hurting, he brings healing to the pain, etc.
I Just though I would share. sorry its a little confusing and weird.

Powerful Video (Made Me Cry)

Taking a Chance

I am one who is afraid of rejection, fearful of what people think of me. Yeah I know that I shouldnt worry about what others think, but Im a highschool girl. So as I have a friend who Im 95% sure that shes not a christian, doesnt go to church, etc. I really like her, and we are good friends, and becoming even better friends.
As Planet Wisdom is coming up I thought maybe I should invite her to come along. But since she doesnt go to church or anyhting I was a little worried to ask. But I felt like I should. So I asked her to go to youth group. Which took a lot to do, since I dont want her to not be my friend because I go to church and cause Im a christian. But she said she would go and I was sooo excited. She said she had fun, and I asked her to come to overtime next week sujnday, and I asked to go to Planet Wisdom, and Im pretty sure she is thinking about it. So Im happy I took that chance.

In this Ive learned that I just have to take the chance... Christ died for me...thats the greatest chance/risk ever. So why do I get so nervous as to what people are going to think of me when invite them to church or a church event. Its who I am... Im a Christian, and proud of it. I shouldnt be afraid of being myself. Plus as christians we are asked to spread the love of Christ.

Teens and Sex

So I was at a friends party, I was the oldest one there. Im 17, so these other girls were 13,14,15, you get it. It was for one of my younger friends obviously!!!! Anyway... they all were talking about how they have boyriends, and how they all have sex with every guy they ever date! there not even in high school!!!!! They are screwing up there lifes in soooooo many ways. Well as Im one who hasnt even had a boyfriend, or have had my first kiss, and Im 17 going to be 18 in Jan. I had nothing to say. I just sat there listening to them. Thinking, "What the heck??? How in the world can girls not even old enough to understand relationships, and arnt even mature enough for them, and even more???" Im not even old enough to know everything about relationships, and I know how stupid they are being. So what does that say??? Am I not mature enough, or am I more mature then most teens??? Do I just not understand why, or am I just using reasoning of my morals??? Im I being the stupid/dumb boring one, or the one use is trying to be smart and finding other ways to have fun??? teens today are in very hard positions to live. We have a whole lot of decicions to make, a whole lot of right and wrong that we need to deal with. Yes we are stupid in ways, some more then others.
Whats right, and as a chirstian, Im waiting, Im saving myself for when Im married, and I can actually enjoy sex. Sure i may come off as no fun, or being a loser and so on, but maybe I can make a differance in some way.


Just some totally random thoughts.
comment if you want.

Dating

Ok so this week I have been thinking a lot about dating and relationships. Mostly because of some middle school girls who are sooo concerned about having a boyfriend. I just just get amazed at how its their main concern in life. I'm not saying that I wasn't that way, and I'm not saying they will always be this way. But really its the lamest most ridiculous thing to be all worried about!!!! I in the past few years have grown up, guys are dorks!!! They really even are not worth the time and day to stress over. Get through high school, get through collage, have fun with FRIENDS in those years. You don't get them back.
Another thing I have seen is girls who obsess over guys don't respect themselves. So if your wanting to be in a relationship, but you can't even respect yourself, how is a guy dating you suppose to respect you. That is setting yourself up for trouble and hurt.
Be absolutely ready. Don't make dating a game. Its a search for who you want to spend your life with, a search to know what kind of qualities in a guy. Don't let the guy you date pull you down in your morals. He has to be someone who can build you up, not tear you down. A good relationship is Christ based. A true, strong, happy, hopeful relationship will be focused on how you two are glorifying God.
Be wise, know what you are setting yourself up for, and alway trust the Lord in everything. He has your future planned out.




Just a few thoughts...kinda probably scattered, but I hope you followed.
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Sweetly Broken

Jeremy Riddle - Sweetly Broken
From the album Sweetly Broken

To the cross I look, to the cross I cling
Of its suffering I do drink
Of its work I do sing

For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed
Showed that God is love
And God is just

Chorus:
At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

What a priceless gift, undeserved life
Have I been given
Through Christ crucified

You’ve called me out of death
You’ve called me into life
And I was under Your wrath
Now through the cross I’m reconciled

Chorus:

In awe of the cross I must confess
How wondrous Your redeeming love and
How great is Your faithfulness

(2x’s)
Chorus:
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I LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!
It honestly makes me cry, because its such a beautiful, amazing song. It is also an amazng truth, of how my God died for me, how our God loves me so much that he was willing to save me from death. To think that my strong beautiful God became weak and suffured for me. I find myself crying out to HIm, because I am not worthy of His love, but I will gracously accept it, and be truly thankful for it. I will confess to Him that Im a screw up, and ask HIm for forgivness, because I know that He will accept me and love me, because He has already shown His AMAZING love for me. HE DIED FOR ME!!!!!

One of the GREATEST analogies I have ever heard is...

As kids we play in mud and get dirty, and probably end up getting hurt. All we want is for our parents to snuggle us and comfert us. But we are all messy and dirty and gross.

Well as christians, we are dirty and messy and gross. but God loves us sooo much that he doesnt care how messy and dirty we are. He will have open arms for us to run into, so he can hold us and comfert us.

Im so thankful that I will always be loved, no matter what I do or screw up on. God will never leave me.

My Faith, Love Of Jesus

My faith is true, I love Jesus and trust Him with my everything. I am constintly learning more and more about Christianity, Faith, Jesus, Life, Love, Relationships, Etc. It is really starting to become more and more one of my biggest passions in life, to learn as much as I can, to get a handle on knowing as much as I can about my Faith. Just in the past year I have learned soo much more then I have ever known. Granted I may not be "Bible Smart" where I know a million and one verses, and know every story in the Bible. But Im more of a "What I Hear, What Im Taught, and What Im Told Smart" Sure I love learning new things out of the Bible because it is the truth, and what christianity is based on. But I love learning lessons and everyday experiences, and how to handle them as Im a christian. Theres no right way to be a christian. We all mess up, but our God, sent his son to DIE for us, so that our screw ups are able to be cleaned up and forgiven. Life is to hard to hard to hanle ourselves, and there may be times we think we got it under control and we dont need any help, but then a big life storm happens, and we get lost and confused. Something that I have experienced and know how sucky it is to go through a very messy lonely time, and I wanted nothing to do with Jesus. But in some way He showed me that I am not able to handle it on my own, and Im not suppose to handle it on my own, it isnt my job to, He is there to help, he wants to help. Its one of the biggest life lessons I have ever learned. It is also the biggest knowledge I want all my friends, and everyone else to know. To know that they dont have to go through life alone.

Have a Great DAY!!!!
Happy almost Easter!!!!!!!!!

Plans for Summer 2008

So my plans for this summer are sitill kinda up in the air. Im not going to Poland again, which is kinda disappointing, because I had a blast last year. But it is also exciting, cause then its giving me an oppertunitie to experiance something new. I am planning on going to Myrtle Beach with Student Venture. So Im excited for that, and really hope that is what I should be dong, and God wants me to be doing this summer. I really havent felt what God really has planned for me this summer. LIke for Poland, I really think that is not what he has planned, I dont feel its where he wants me, and I had the chance to go to West Virgina with St. Lukes, but when I was going to say something to the youth director, I just couldnt bring it up, cause I felt God say nope thats not it either. So Ive been PRAYING and trying to listen to God and let him lead me to where and what Im going to be doing this summer. So I am feeling pretty excited and think this Myrtle Beach thing is what I am suppose to be doing. But I will be continueing to be praying and listening to God to tell me for sure or not. I trust HIM and want to please HIM in what I will be doing this summer.