Close Friends

So every morning I get time to read, and think, pray, whatever... its fabulous. But this morning thoughts of my friends came about, ok well I think about my friends and family all the time, but today I was thinking about the close friends I have, and have had.
Well as I was thinking, I realized when I start to get close to someone I freak out. Don't get me wrong, I love my friendships, I need them in my life. But I really have noticed that I freak out when I start getting super close to someone. Why, not sure. Maybe cause I have been burned a few to many times, maybe cause it puts a fine line on getting hurt, or me hurting someone. Cause I think I have a tendency to hurt people, and I also have a tendency to get hurt very easily.
Which I think in saying that, I think it puts an effect on my walk with Christ. I know people have sinful nature, and I know I can always trust and count on Christ, but if I get burned by people, it leaves a hurt. Dude I am still hurt by someone who burned me in elementary school... ugh can anyone say get over it Beth... lol
I guess I just need to get over this, and figure out not everyone is going to burn me, not everyone is going to hurt/cut me down. Another thing to work on ME. Trust, its a huge deal to me.