Phone mix up

AHAHAHA
So today I was talking to Donnie on the phone, and he was calling about concessions for the 33 Mile concert. I thought he said confession!!!
I felt soooo stupid, it was funny!!!
I was like confession??? WHAT??? why in the world would we do confession for a concert at our church. Then it clicked that he said concession. I was like OOOO CONCESSION, not confession!!!!
AHAHA it was funny.

Thanksgiving

You know it is very hard to be thankful for something when you are in soooo much pain.
Don't get me wrong, I am very thankful for things, like my parents and my brothers, and friends, mostly every blessing that has ever happened and will happen. But my skin has really been bothering me lately, especially today. Thanksgiving is a day to celebrate with others about what you are thankful for. But it was just hard for me, spent a good amount of time sleeping in the morning, because I didn't want to get up and deal with my skin. And when I did get up I took a bleach bath (Dr. told me to take them to help clean out my pours) then I showered to get the bleach water stuff of of me. In hopes that I would feel much better afterward. Well, most of my body felt better, but my face HURT like no other. It was really red, tight, and felt like it was on fire. NO FUN!!! So once we sat down to eat, I was still miserable. I have been miserable all day. I don't like spending my days like this... Especially holidays!!!!

So if you could just say a prayer for me, that my skin can get better!!!

Thanks
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Beth

By Your Side (Tenth Avenue North Song)

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

(Chorus 2x)

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

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So I have fallen in LOVE with this song.
It really shows me God's Love for me.
He will love me, and be there for me through anything and everything.
No matter how much I mess up, he will be there for me.
He never will leave me, and never stop caring and loving me.
No matter how rich or poor I am, He doesn't care.
All we need is HIM.

This life on earth are numbered. He Died for us to have innumerable days with HIM.

Christ loves me, and you.
This song really hits me hard to know that I can't screw up big enough for Jesus not to love me!!! He will always be with me, and always be there for me.



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Beth

Why Don't Some People Not Want To Vote???

It really irritates me that I know so many people who didn't want to vote.
I don't get why. Its a important thing to do. People fought for our right to vote. As American citizens it is our duty to step up and use our voices, make choices for ourselves. This country is set up on the people. We wouldn't be where we are today with out the peoples views, the peoples say. So why in the world would you NOT want to be part of that. Everyones Vote counts, everyone has a say in what happens.

As Christians we are even more obligated to vote. It is a moral reason, just because God as the final say in it all, and he knows what is going to happen. But its the biggest mistake Christians have made. Gos has allowed us to have the freedom to vote, so why wouldn't we want to.

My Future

My future is closer then I think it is!!! I'm a Senior, I know what I want to do with my future, but I'm afraid I wont succeed at it. Photography is my passion, and have dreamed about it as far as I can remember!!! But then I think about it and get scared that I'm not good enough for it. so there is that fear of where I'm going to go, how well am i going to do, etc. and then there's the whole boy situation...yes I know I should worry about this right now, but I want to be married someday, I want to have kids. I want to be a good wife, a good mom. I want to feel like I'm wanted, important, while doing what I love. I want to be happy, I want to succeed, I want to have the life I have always dreamed about. Being a photographer, a wife, a mom, a good sister, a good daughter, a good follower of Christ, a faithful, trusting person, a good friend. Right now is a very critical time... I need to figure out what I'm going to do for school. I want to find or meet the possible Mr right in the next few years... I don't mean right now or this year or even next...but not ten years from now. I know its all in Gods hands, but I just wish I knew, I want to feel comfortable with moving on in my life, and comfortable with what I'm going to do after I graduate. I want to live a life of purpose, and of excellence. I need Gods wisdom of what to do.

A Touchy Subject Tested.

Once again I have had my buttons pushed with sex outside of marriage. Again it is dealing with someone close to me.
I just don't get it. Well I do, its called temptation and hard to say no to it.
Well The past two weeks I have been bottling up the feeling of whats going on, cause I don't want to be a jerk to the person. But when bottled up feelings become to much... theres a big explosion. And stupid me forgot about that little detail. SO as I talk to this person, (after 2 weeks of knowing) my feelings start to arise :/ BAD THING!!! I flipped out. Then I got into my stupid stage of once I flip I don't say anything else.
Its just the fact that I'm so sensitive to the subject and I have to deal with the fact that its going on in peoples live that I care about. Its a sad realization, but I don't understand what the point is of having sex outside of marriage is. Maybe God has just blessed me with the wisdom of knowing the special significants of waiting till marriage.
I just need to stay patient, and sensitive in whats going on in lives around me.


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Just more rambles again :)

Beanie Weenies!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahaha I love the Skit Guys.
Even though this is funny, and doesn't go with the rest of my blog, Just thought I would put this on here for fun.

Wisdom and Word Needed

I am blogging to ask for prayer and personally pray that I can have the wisdom and the words that I need to really talk to Jessie about Jesus, and what it means to be a Christian. I slightly had a talk about it tonight, but mostly what it was that I said something about how I really liked Jesus and how he is a good guy, and she should really find him. She said she can find him, but not be a Christian. With that said, I really felt God pull at my heart and I know that I am meant to bring her to Christ. I mean like I have posted before, just asking her to come to church was a step out of my comfort zone. So that was God working through me. And I really have a feeling that she will find the truth, and I just hope that I will be part of her story someday. But I know God is working through me, and I want to be used. I have never been a reason someone has come to Christ (not that I know of anyway.) I love Jessie and there is nothing more that I want for her, then to become a follower of Jesus Christ.
I want to get her a Bible, a cool fun Bible, that I could give to her and use to help me start that conversation. Plus she said she didn't have a bible and I was like you want one? She said sure, so I really think it would help and be a cool thing to get her. Another reason I feel like I am being pulled to do this is cause she likes coming to youth group with me. She says she has fun, and that makes me really happy. So I just ask that you pray for me to be that light to her.





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Bethann

Life Storms

So I'm in the middle of one...
Its a weird one too.
I'm so frustrated, stressed, overwhelmed, and just down. But then I know that God has a complete understanding and control of why everything thats going on is happening. He knows whats beyond this, he knows everything, and I have complete understanding of that. But I just can't seem to know what to do, I need to hear God tell me what I need to do to get everything straight, under control. I feel helpless, like theres nothing no one can do. I feel like I can't do anything to help myself.

I know God will never let me go, never leave my side through this. I know FULL well he is in control. As my favorite verse Says: I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. (Psalm 139:14)

Please if you read this and any of my other posts, please just pray for me.

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Beth