Daily Time with God

So I got a new devotional 2 weeks ago, its awesome, best devotional I have ever t seen thus far :) love love love it. It is a 365 day devotional for students, mostly high school/college age. Anywho,it is by ignite your faith, and its called Set Your Faith on Fire. It is such a cool devotional, it has stories, bible verses, bible stories told in a fun way, challenges you to do something, asks you questions, and more. Every day is different. There are, I think 48 different topics/subjects that it goes on within the 365 days. Things from the Bible, to dating, to making choices, to who God is, etc. I have never been this excited about a devo before!!! I have been in it everyday since I got it. Along with reading it, I have gotten SOOOOO much better at daily reading my Bible. I have to spend time reading it, or my day does not feel complete. God has really been showing Himself and meeting me in my time with Him. I have been understand more out of the Bible then I ever have. I feel God teaching me, and allowing my faith, and spiritual journey grow more and more. It started out with God showing/teaching me about perseverance, then it has moved on to living and looking like a Christian. I can't even tell you how excited I am about this. I just hope and pray God will keep me strong in keeping up with my daily time with Him. Because its by the grace of God that I am learning and growing, and longing to spend time with Him.

People Pleaser

I am a huge people pleaser. I try everything in my power to make people happy. I hate when someone is mad at me. But so many times I screw up, I feel I don't do anything right. I hate being a disappointment. I do everything in my power to make things right, set things aside so I can make someone else happy, I have a hard time saying no to something that I know I really can't do, but I will make it work, and do it. Why???
I can't please everyone, its not possible. I'm only one person. I'm a weak and broken person at that. I live off of God's strength and awesomeness. Am I really doing as God wants when I try and please people? Probably not, cause I am concerned about people being happy with me, when all I need is to please God, make HIM happy, and proud of me. But why can't I be content and happy with that.

I got a facebook message frome a friend with a link to this page: Quit Trying to Please Everybody - Tools @ PurposeDriven.com

It really made me start to think, and try and work on not worrying about what people think of me.

Silly Parenting Question....

Ok to all you parents who read my blog... question for you.

As you watch your kids grow up, more and more independent, and such. Do you remember when they took there very first shower? Is it a big moment in your kids lives? Or is it just another thing that really doesn't matter?
Because I was thinking the other day, I remember the first time I ever took a shower. I felt so cool... lol ... I felt like a big kid. I didn't need mom and dads help. I wanted to be a big kid, and do it myself.
Maybe its just me that thinks its a big step in life. Maybe not. But I think of it as another step into growing up, being more independent, more responsible. No need for help. You spend so many years bathing your children, making sure they are clean, and smelling good :) but then there comes a day when no, they want to be a big kid, and take a SHOWER all by them-selves.

SO... is it a big deal, or no?

Hello December

Hello December,
Wow its already December. Where has this year gone???
SO far this year, I have completed high school, graduated, went to Poland, made new friends, last min decided I was going to go to school, and now I am almost done with my first semester of college. WHAT???????
It really is true that as you get older, time goes faster.
I am super excited to see what is in store for my in this next year. If I can accomplish more then expected this year, what could possibly come next??? God is so funny and awesome.
Trusting Him in every decision, is the best thing I can ever do. There is just a whole new sense of peace in my life :)

MN State University Mankato

So I have been looking at colleges to transfer to at some point. I really have been trusting God on this one. I actually was really excited about Indiana University in Bloomington. Ans I still think it would be fabulous to go to. But out of state, non-resident students, tuition including room and board, and such would be over 30 grand a year. As I told people about IU, a lot of people have asked me about going to MN for school. Since its out of state, but I would get in state tuition. So I was kinda debating about if it was I should do. And I wasn't sure if I would get my major there. Well FInally I looked up if MN State University Mankato had it, and YUP they have it :) I was rather excited. I feel right about that too. Dan went there, and I always have thought it was a pretty sweet school. So I just have to keep praying about it, and be sure its what God has planned, and not me just wanting to make it work. But like I said, I feel right about it, and I think it would be awesome.

Is it Wrong?

Is it wrong to feel so close to something, but not feel connected???
Meaning... Church. I am so involved there, I'm there almost everyday. Maybe that is my problem. I am doing things I like/love to do but I don't feel satisfied, or content with it all. The thing I feel God really pushing me to be involved with and be part of leadership, I can't, Not 100% sure why I can't, but yeah. I love Fox River, don't get me wrong. It's been a place where life change has happened for me. I just feel like its another thing to do there. If its not one area I'm working in, its another, I feel obligated to do things when I don't have to.
Then there is a whole respect issue. I by no means think I am awesome, and deserve all sorts of respect, and that people should treat me like I'm #1. But I work hard, I would really like a little more respect and trust from people. I feel I get treated like an idiot monkey.
I just hope/pray God will show His plan for me through all this!!!

Proverbs 16:3
Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.

Who Knew

Who knew painting and cleaning a kitchen could be so much stinkin' fun??? Honestly!!!!
This weekend, Sam and I went over to help Amy paint her kitchen. We had the best time ever, I couldn't even start to tell you all the random things that happened!!! Sam falling to the floor laughing, Me almost falling off the counter and the ladder because of laughing so hard.
I think it's so awesome when God gives me weekends that are awesome like this one has been. Cause no matter what happens in life, I have those friends, the memories, and that time shared together.

Surrender

I have really been learning to surrender everything to God. I have seen/felt it in relationships, and just everything with school. Right now my biggest thing is surrendering every decision and trusting what he has in store for me. I kind of now have my heart set on a school, and I really feel good about it, and I feel/really hope that it is TRULY what God has planned for me. Indiana University has my attention for where I want to go. I trust God, and I feel it is where he is leading me. The only thing is cost, it is an expensive school. But I trust God, if it is where he wants me to go, he will provide.

I just want you guys to please prey for all the things that need to be done as far as all this goes, and that I can truly do what GOd has for me.

Fasting

Well today I have made the decision to fast from my cell phone. I will be starting on Tuesday (tomorrow) and go till Saturday. I really feel like God has been pushing me to take a break from it. I am to dependent on it, and I need to have all dependent self On HIM! I am excited, cause I am listening to God, and He has taken that tug away because I have listened, and am following what he is telling me to do. Its a cool feeling :)

I just hope people will help me stay accountable.
I am so excited to have Sam joining my on this challenge, as she has felt the same tugging feeling, and call from God.